Seven and a half, and some reflection...

This week was more of the same, I did have two dr. appointments though. At my OB appointment, I learned that I will be induced either at 37 or 38 weeks depending on what my ultrasound told us at my high risk doctor. I also learned that my OB's office is closed next week which is my 36th week...that means my cerclage stays in til week 37. She almost took it out this week, but wanted to wait until my u/s....not really sure why, because my next appointment with her isn't until week 37 anyway. Basically it would've been nice if my appointment had been after my high risk appointment.

At my ultrasound, we learned that Maddox is approximately 5 lb 6 oz. We also learned that it would have been fine to take the cerclage out, and that I don't want to go into labor with it in.... That's comforting! So, my next Ob appointment I guess, the cerclage will come out, and I'll find out my induction date. Maddox should be here by or before Januaary 10th.

We are so ready to meet Maddox. Our road with pregnancy has not been easy, so if you are one of those people that have easy non complicated pregnancies, you should stop right now, and give God some glory for that.

It took us about 2 years to get pregnant, unfortunately, our first pregnancy ended in miscarriage at 10 weeks. We were devastated. Unless you've been there, you can't fully understand what that is like. Our second pregnancy, we found out about 2 years ago Christmas Day. This time, we were excited, but cautious. At 12 weeks I had a sub chorionic hemorrhage. We thought we had miscarried again, but to our relief there was still a strong heartbeat on the ultrasound. We found out shortly thereafter we were having a girl. Kamdyn Grace, but at 19 weeks I started having contractions. I was put in the hospital, and at 20.5 weeks they couldn't stop labor any more and Kamdyn was born weighing less than1 lb. I miss her everyday, and the only comfort I have with that situation is knowing that she rests in the arms of Jesus with her brother or sister we miscarried before her.

A year and a half later, we find out we are pregnant again. We proceed with extreme caution, and I immediately make an appointment with a perinatologist.we come up with an action plan,and at 12 weeks I got the cerclage in place. You'd think with my history I'd be very freaked out about the possibilities of this pregnancy, but I actually had more peace Than I did with the other two. I really felt God say " I got this!" I think he lead us to Dr. Mirabile, and with his close eye we have made it to this point. I think the two week ultrasounds saved us from more heartache. They told us when it was time for bed rest. If I was just at a regular ob,they wouldn't have caught it, because it wouldn't have shown up on the 20 week u/s. So here I am at almost 36 weeks, bored out of my mind on bed rest, and ever so thankful to be here. Happy Birthday Jesus, and thank you for all you have done for me!

Six Weeks and a Day

I'm a day late from my usual weekly update, but that is because of what most of our mom's teach us from childhood. If you can't say something nice, don't say anything at all. Wednesdays are typically off days for me. I get my p17 shots on Tuesdays so I'm typically very hormonal/ emotional on Wednesdays. You can see it in most of my Wednesday posts, and each week seems to get a little worse. Thankfully I only have 2 more weeks of shots left.

For those of you that think bed rest is easy, it so is not. Anyone could do it for a day or two, but six weeks of laying on the couch, not being able to do anything, it wears on you fast. Add to that having to be away from your home and your spouse,it gets frustrating at times.

That being said, I am so thankful to be where I am at. The fact that mom and dad have a house 10 minutes away from my hospital, and that mom is able to be here with me is such a gift. Not to mention making it to 34 weeks in itself is fabulous. I don't want my frustrations to be taken as I am not thankful to be where I'm at. I am so thankful and am hoping and praying for 2 more weeks at least.

Mondays and Thursdays I go in for Non Stress Tests. It's nice to just sit back and listen to Maddox's heartbeat. I have my next appointment with my delivering doctor on Tuesday, and my next ultrasound with my high risk doctor on Thursday. I will be excited to see how much Maddox has grown. One thing they have been keeping an eye on is my blood pressure. It isn't to a pre eclampsia level yet, but seems to be slowly creeping up, so they are keeping a close eye on it and doing protein checks, that could be another big factor of delivering early. I'm just hoping and praying that if he comes in the next couple of weeks, he won't require much if any of a NICU stay.

No matter what happens, I know God is in control, and it is only because of Him we have made it this far. Something to remember this Christmas season. Jesus is the reason. He came to give us life and to give it more abundantly. Happy Holidays!

Week five and frustrated!

So we have reached week five. The highlights of my week have been my non stress test and Dr. Appointment. I finally met my new Dr. Nothing like waiting til the 33rd week to meet your delivering doctor. I really like her though. She said if I make it to 36 weeks, she will take out my cerclage, and I won't have to be on strict bed rest any more. That will be so nice. I won't quite know what to do with myself. As it is, the only time I get to get out is on dr. Days.

I did get to go home Saturday for my shower. It was so nice. My hostesses did a great job, and it was good to see and visit with people. We got most of our big stuff, and now I'm just trying to make sure we have everything we will need right away. Just when I think we have everything, I think of something else, I'm sure it will be like that for a while. Thank goodness for online shopping.

Today has been a blah day. Things that shouldn't bother me have, and Im really missing Will today. I will chalk it up to pregnancy hormones. You know it's not going to be a good day when it starts with tears. Oh well, tomorrow will be better. I have another non stress test,so I'll get to get out for a little bit.

I'll end this blog as it has been a little bit of all over the place. Have a good week!